No Resolve

We're only a few days away from the new year.  2015.  Already.  Am I the only one in shock?  Probably not.  Coming to the realization the next year is so close has given me pause once or twice.

 It's already all over the television about the next holiday specials and, of course, New Year's resolutions.  I guess a lot of people make those.  I don't.  Never have.  I understand the concept.  The logic isn't lost on me.  New year, new you, blah, blah, blah.  My usual excuse is that I don't like setting myself up for failure.  (They say most resolutions are never kept, so I resolve to not put myself in that position.)  Or, maybe I'm just lazy.

It's not that there aren't things to change.  There are always things I would like to change.  I just really lack the desire to, upon the start of the new year, say "this year I will..." and then somehow make whatever it is happen.

For example, could I resolve to not eat this whole frozen pizza in one sitting?  Sure...but why?  Just because I shouldn't eat a whole pizza?  (It's not that big and who else is going to eat it?  Samson?  He probably wouldn't mind, but he shouldn't eat that much pizza either.)

Sometimes I think that the whole resolution thing is horribly cliche.  And I'm great at rationalizing.  But, I also know that's what I'm doing.  Of course, life being so incredibly unpredictable, managing my resolve would make it easier to go with the flow.  So, maybe this coming year should be different.  Maybe this time I could actually make a resolution and then magically keep it.  Maybe, just maybe, this time I will resolve to not resolve to not make any resolutions.  Then, if I decide to be resolute about something, I'm not undoing a resolution already.

Oh.  And I did eat the whole pizza.  What?!  It's really good pizza!