A Monumental Decision

Well, it has been quite a month or so.  Kiddo has visited me more or less every other weekend now since sometime near the beginning of November (or there about).  This most recent time was from Thursday night to Monday morning.  We got to practice dropping off and picking up from school.  Can't say that was all too exciting or challenging.  She seemed bummed when I dropped her off Monday morning, but I was bummed too that the weekend was over and it was time to go back to work.

So I have had a monumental decision looming in front of me since I heard about and met this little girl.  Do I, or don't I?  Would I be the best mom for her?  I have been surrounded by encouragement, voices that insisted "yes, you should" and the like.  I think I have been the only one not jumping up and down excited and positive.  I've tried to let the rational side of my brain be in charge.  I have recently had the opportunity to chat with several people who have experience in the adoption and foster system (including two who were themselves adopted from foster care) and they have had very good advice to give about how to decide, what these kids need, the changes this could or will bring, and more.  It has been most helpful.

I have decided to move forward with the placement of this little girl in my home.  I called my agency guy and Kiddo's caseworker late this afternoon to get the ball rolling.  I had to leave a message for the caseworker, but I suspect I will be getting a phone call from her straight away tomorrow...probably while I'm not able to answer the phone.  We will talk about details such as moving dates and so much more I'm sure.  After a minimum of six months fostering, we are able to move forward with adoption if so desired.

The adventure continues just in an even more real way.  It came down to my willingness to step out in faith.  So...*step*